On to the written topic…

As most of you know, I was waiting for my PISMP (Degree TESL in IPG) result to see whether I’m qualified for an interview slot and the result is in….. MY APPLICATION WASN’T ACCEPTED. Yes, I know... my previous post depicted how reluctant I was to enter this programme (if I got accepted but that wouldn’t be a problem anymore :p) and to become a primary school English teacher. Some of you may think I would be relieved but the truth is, with every application rejected, there’s disappointment especially my sister (who wanted me to enter the programme, badly).

On another note, my MUET March result is in as well! And I obtained……. BAND 5. YES! YES! YES! I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw it! Not bad ey? From a student who obtained Band 3 (with one mark less to B4) last year to a Band 5 student! This is such a triumph for me, you have no idea! (Although those who have read my previous entries would specifically know why it's euphoric :p) It goes to show how careless one can be at a vulnerable moment. The most ironic thing was both result fell upon the same day which was Monday, 6^th of May 2013. The contrast of both results made my emotions neutral that day. Har har..

And then there’s one… UPU result. The mother of all result that will determine my entire life, literally. I admit, I had bitter moments with UPU. Mostly because I didn’t get any offers from local universities with my SPM result and I’m hoping for my dear life that the fate won’t repeat itself for my STPM. Please God…

Although, the good news is… local universities such as UiTM, UUM, UniMAS, UMS and top local universities such as UM, UPM, UKM have two degree intakes. The first one being on September where all the accepted UPU applicants enter and in February the manual applications.

Being a paranoid person, I have set up plans for the worst case scenarios if my applications for the September intake fall through*palispalis* :

                Plan A:

Wait for another year (in the meantime, get a part-time job to earn some savings) and apply for February 2014 intake. How am I certain that I would get at least one acceptance from a university? Well, I’ve checked my result qualification for all the local unis in Malaysia through a system and I’m qualified for some of them (even those in prominent universities such as UPM and UKM!) I do not know for certain if they would still accept me then because there’s always the competition of other qualified applicants but I’m keeping myself optimistic.

                Plan B:

Apply for November 2013 intake to half private/government universities and again, in the meantime, get a part-time job because God knows I need those savings if I do enter a private university. MSU (Management and Science University, Shah Alam) has always been the top half private university in my head ever since SPM because it’s the kind of private uni that’s affordable-ish and with MQA (Malaysian Qualification Agency, accreditation). I received an offer for Foundation in Law back in 2011 but my mum was still hopeful of my STPM path back then so she didn’t gave me her blessings. Long story short, if all else fails, I would enter the Bachelor in Law and Commerce (Hons) programme since I’ve always been interested in commercial law. It’s either that or Bachelor in TESL Education (Hons). However Malaysia has an overflow of English teachers already and I don’t think it would be a wise choice to jump on that bandwagon any further.

Whatever it may be… it all depends on how my UPU result will turn out this coming July. Two more months to know which plan I should follow through or not. There is so much uncertainty in life after high school and it wholly depends on a lot of aspects in your life and yourself. I wish I could tell my 17 years old self that before but it is what it is now. I’m confident that I will not be an anxious sitting duck for too long. I just can’t. I wasn’t born that way. Heck nobody was born that way! I can’t accept the fact that a person like me and you that has an incredible potential to succeed can let a measly result decide their future!

I’m very excited to know where life will take me next be it in education, legislation or arts. As it was written in Proverbs 16:9,

You may make your plans, but God directs it.

Most things have a reason. Noticed how I didn’t write ‘Everything has a reason’? Because it depends on our actions as well. Not all of our fates are directed by a mystical coincidence in the universe (and by ‘mystical coincidence’, I did not mean God by the way).

-- Cheers to the future and our independency.