Do you know why people use the term ‘assholes’? Because everything that they say comes out as shit.

One perfect example of a person I’ve unfortunately met goes by the name of Aw-- (his real name shall remain discrete. Although most of you know who it might be already. Let’s call him Tinkerbelle.)

*Post may be long due to excessive anger towards this douche*

*If you feel like you’re the person in the next following descriptions then most probably it’s you and you should feel bad*

This person is honestly the first person I ever met in my life that has a combination of being immature beyond words, a horrible attention seeker, a failure in being competitive, deceiving, stubborn, fickle (ESPECIALLY FICKLE) and a two-faced persona.

It all started when I entered Pre-U and I saw this person with an arrogant aura radiating from him sooner or later we’re in the same class and he unfortunately became my friend. At first he’s a friendly and funny Muslim fella. Always welcoming us into his house and I honestly appreciated his hospitality but it soon came to an end.  4 months past and he began to be friend with others who I would like to say has a ‘free-spirited’ sort of lifestyle; smoking, drinking, clubbing, staying out late etc… It’s alright if he likes to be friends with other people BUT this person, as he ‘fell in love’ and became jakun with their lifestyle he began to gradually ignore his other friends who’s not up to his current standard. On his birthday in the month of August 2011 was the month I realized of his true colours. As he gave us an exact time 4PM of when we should be in Suria for what he said, ‘a paintball fest’ in conjunction with his birthday. Prior, I should tell you that my dad was against me going to Suria at the time but I made an effort to go because it was my friend’s birthday and it would meant a lot to him if I attend since pretty much his other friends couldn't make it. I should’ve listened to my dad and not go. So, my friend, Serra and I came early like 2PM because we thought he probably wanted to hang out before paintball. Here’s the deal, on his birthday he booked a hotel room far from Suria with his 3 ‘free-spirited’ friends and they hung out to the beach, back and forth to the hotel. So, when Serra and I already arrived, we texted him saying that we’re already in Suria waiting for them and sure enough he said, wait a bit longer and longer and longer and longer until it was 6 fucking PM. We could’ve catch a movie or two if he alang2 told us he’ll be 4 hours late or 2 hours late by his initial time! By that time, it’s already getting late and us mere mortals a.k.a Serra and I weren’t allowed to stay out until it’s dark so we didn’t managed to play a round of anything. We concluded that the day was a TOTAL WASTE but we held our patience and kept our mouth shut. It was as if he didn’t appreciate and respect us at all other than his needs. It was like everyone should follow and value his time instead of ours.

The next or a few days later in school, I asked Yvette what they did until they were 4 hours late and she complained how Tinkerbelle wouldn’t stop demanding going back and forth from the hotel to the beach and some other places which caused her to be so fatigue from driving. At that moment Yvette, Serra and I realized that Tinkerbelle is not a good person which caused us to give him the cold shoulders and eventually he sensed it and went all mad like a little bitch hingga he posted a Facebook status stating that, “I’ll tell everyone your true colours … and blah blah blah”. He never did told anyone by the way, because he has no people to agree with him in Pre-U anyway because they know who he really is and it was just a ‘scare tactic’ of his to be right in the situation. How stupid. And in my head I was like, “What true colours? As far as I can see where this is heading, we’re simply showing you the truth while you are the one with the hidden colours”.  Oh and there’s this one time where he posted a hate status and Yvette accidently liked it. Serra liked the status as a sign of an acceptance to the challenge (a reason concocted so that Yvette's accidental 'like' wouldn't look like a support to his side) but I didn’t like the status because I didn’t had the means to go to his profile and do the same. I’m not sure if an egotistical head as Tinkerbelle would think that they were on his side or something after that.

This bitchy turmoil of his went on until he wanted to change classes which meant changing his stream and subject at the end of the year WHICH WAS STUPID because he wouldn’t be able to catch up and he was so indecisive with his decision that the class teacher of the other stream was fed up with his excuse. In the end he didn’t change classes.

Half of the year passed and Yvette who’s a darling forgiver at heart, befriended Tinkerbell and Serra moved to UiTM to pursue her passion in arts. However, I until this day will not forgive him because he should be the one asking for forgiveness for his terrible attitude. I met new and better friends that gave me positive influences which greatly helped me in boosting my studies rather than the bitch. I left him with his new found friends and let him make his own mistakes.

One more thing about Tinkerbelle is that he’s a fickle-minded person. Fickle means quick in changing ideas and thoughts. At first when Yvette and me wanted to take Law if our STPM results are good, he quickly changed his ambition from being an Art Director or anything that has to do with MMU (he got that idea from Serene by the way) and Arts to Law and he kept telling me that he couldn’t settle for anything less because his family would shun him *kunun* if he doesn’t have a ‘significant’ career and he was so proud of it you could tell by his facial expression. Between you and me, I don’t think his family wouldn’t mind him taking anything as long as he has a successful career. I believe he’s

So, when Yvette moved to take her Foundation in Business in Swinburne of course Tinkerbelle jumped on the bandwagon and wanted to take Business with Yvette. As much as Yvette wouldn’t admit it publicly, she was lucky to get him out of her hair on a daily basis and when he met friends that were interested in Fashion Design, once again the ‘tiada pendirian tetap’ of a person quickly changed his ambition from Business to Fashion Design. He even said this to me with his bitchy face, “My brother said that lawyers in Sabah only make 1.3k a month and that’s not enough! I rather take Fashion Design and open up my own business!”

and I was like okay? Was that supposed to change my view and sting me as well?

Other than Law my other main interest is English so I wanted to take TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language). Since Tinkerbelle here loves to compete with me in English I told him IF he would be interested in being an English teacher? And I told him this as an encouragement and as a friend sharing her passion since he never stops sharing his ever-changing ‘passions’ to me. And do you know what he said to me? I still remember it clearly until today:

“Can you imagine if I become a teacher while my siblings are a Doctor and a PEMANDU, I would be so embarrassed if I can't live up to them!”

Can you imagine how ridiculed I felt? I felt as though he thinks being a teacher is a ‘kampungan’ of a career AND again, he wouldn't stop bringing up his oh-so-successful siblings in the conversation. You know what? NOBODY CARES about your siblings what matters is if YOU can succeed in life without the help of your siblings. At this point, we’re not even sure if your siblings do say those things or you’re making it up to look as though you’re more significant than others! By the way, a teacher with a degree has a starting salary of 2k now because of the new law under KPM. Even my sister’s salary is up to 6k now! But you never see me boosting to you about that! Because it doesn’t matter what my sister makes! It matters how I’m going to make MY life instead of feeding off of my family’s money and fame.

Let me tell you this Tinkerbelle, as much as you like to boost about your family, let’s turn the table for a while as I’ve never mentioned to you that my eldest sister and her husband are lawyers and my brother-in-law is a partner in a law firm in KL under Datuk Seri Shahrizat’s name or the fact that my brother is a human resource manager in the same law firm and my other sisters are an industrial psychologist who studied in the University of Michigan, English teacher and soon to be lecturer and an architect. Have I ever mentioned these to you while you were busy bringing me down with your egos? NO. HAVE I EVER MENTIONED TO YOU HOW I AM ALSO STRESSED IN KEEPING UP TO THEIR EXPECTATIONS? NO. HAVE I EVER BOOST TO YOU ABOUT ALL OF THESE WHILE YOU WERE HOVERING ABOVE ME AND EVERYBODY ELSE WITH YOUR WOODPECKER FACE? NO.

Tinkerbelle here is also competitive with me when it comes to English specifically MUET. I’m not sure why he’s like that. It's an advantage to befriend people no matter what they’re good at so that we can share our knowledge and be successful together. For the real MUET (Malaysian University English Test) exam, he obtained Band 4 and I obtained Band 3. My mark was only 1 less to getting Band 4 and the difference between his mark and my mark was only 7. He went around the Pre-U block back and forth from the other class to our class and wouldn’t stop mentioning about his Band since he and Frances obtained the highest in Pre-U and of course most of the students bad-mouthed him because they think that he’s overdoing it with the pride while Frances remains quiet and humble. I wanted to congratulate him until…..he said this to me with his pity-bitchy-face mode on,

“Evelyn… are you mad?”

WoahWoahWoah. I wasn’t even mad at you until you brought that up! I was engrossed in disappointment because of my result but NEVER WAS I MAD AT YOU FOR GETTING HIGHER THAN ME. I AM SO NOT YOU. How big-headed could you possibly be to assume that people are mad or jealous of your result? MUET is not everything! STPM was our main focus to obtain good results!

Oh and he hates living in Malaysia (Except KL) he always mentions how he would go abroad and leave Sabah and Malaysia to live in New York or some jagged-up ass hipster of a place and he once told me that he wouldn’t be caught dead studying in UMS (Universiti Malaysia Sabah) because well, it’s in Sabah but now as he has received his results, all he wants is to study International Relation in UMS but I’m not sure if his result is qualified enough to be accepted in UMS and get this, now he's interested in TESL. Tinkerbelle, sometimes… we need to be grateful for the little things in life because who knows? We may bitch and bitch of what we don’t want and in the end, we get nothing. You’re a anak Datuk and your sister bought you a car, you have the freedom to roam around and go out as you please and yet… you’re not grateful? I don’t get it.

You said that your dad is cheating on your mom in Indon and I am honestly very sorry for that. No child wants to see their father cheat on their beloved mother but dear, that isn’t an excuse for you to be ungrateful for your life.. My dad got divorced from his first marriage because he was cheating which then resulted to a baby with the woman. Then my dad married my mom and he cheated on her with another woman which also led to another baby and this baby was 1 year younger than me which caused me to think that my birth was the reason that my dad didn’t want my mom anymore. Look, I don’t want pity from any of you. My point is, that’s our dad’s mistake not ours. We should be grateful nonetheless that our dads are still active in our lives and married to our moms. It may not be that significant but it’s a blessing in a rugged situation that they are still there and that’s something that we should be grateful of. We shouldn’t dwell in our parents’ problems we should dwell on ours and improve ourselves for OUR future, you understand?

After STPM was over, I felt as though heavy burdens were lifted from my shoulders not only in the form of school and studies but the burden of this person.

So I signed up to retake my MUET Exam as a private candidate because the Degree courses that I want requires a minimum of Band 4 and since I was 1 mark less to Band 4, I might as well retake it for my own good. Let’s just see how this one turns out. I was really careful to not be careless this time and I hope my MUET result turns out as well as I hope it would be. But of course Tinkerbelle here wasn’t satisfied with his MUET result even though Band 4 is just-the-nice score to fulfil the MUET requirement for university courses. Again, he brought up his siblings as an excuse for him wanting to retake MUET but in my opinion, he just wanted to be the best than everyone else so that he has something to bluff on even if it means wasting RM101 for the MUET registration. How immature. Your Band 4-in-Maktab days are long over. What matters is STPM. MUET is not as important if you already obtained a secure Band 4. Can you apply a significant course by actually ace-ing your MUET but your STPM or SPM doesn't cut it? Nope. It’s those two latter that counts the most unless your main reason to retake MUET is to feed your ego.

Learn from my mistake; trust your intial gut because a cover of a book can be more appealing than it's content. I have learnt that I should be more careful in choosing my friends and so should you too because a friend can indeed influence your life by adding or lessening your stress. In this case, he made my Pre-U life annoying, In the end, at least my STPM result is satisfying and I've checked that my result is qualified in UPM and UUM for the courses that I’m passionate in.

‘Ignore those whom bitch about you and focus on moulding your life rather than theirs’ has always been my words of encouragement throughout this trial and it worked. In contrary, I thank God for bringing this type of person into my life even if it is for a short and painful while because it became a constant reminder who I do not want to be and be associated with.