Hello earthlings, I bring thee news that I am in fact, infatuated with an individual and I’m unsure of the well-being of the state of affairs.

This person is sweet and he confessed that he has a crush on me as well as I (which is awesome). He’s incredibly nice and the good part is he already met my whole family! And by that I mean the WHOLE family. Parents, sisters, brothers, nieces, nephews, bro-in-laws, sis-in-laws, aunts and uncles. It’s like the only people he hasn’t met in my family are my late grandparents and one grandma in Philippines! My parents and eldest sister totally approves of him because they have met his parents and they’re really courteous, humble and kind. My second sister however….. She thinks the same but…… she has a bit of a doubt. Well, because this wonderful person who I’m infatuated over is her husband’s first cousin.

Is that weird?

I mean, if you read it that way it does sound a bit…. dare I say, incest but we’re not blood-related! It’s only through marriage. My sister’s marriage. Couldn’t be wrong, could it?

I mean it’s hi-time right? I’m 20 years old and never had a boyfriend. Like a real boyfriend. Only flings. It never seems to go beyond a fling you know what I mean? Whenever I have this ‘fling’, it seems to me as a relationship but gradually I found out that it’s not and the only person that’s affected is me. Even I haven’t touched my relationship status in Facebook yet. Sometimes I wonder if it’ll forever be in ‘Single’ mode while my friends are constantly changing it to ‘In a relationship’, ‘It’s complicated’, ‘Engaged’ (for the heck of it). I’m not desperate or anything like that, I love concentrating on moulding a solid base for my future first but as another year passes and you imagine of your future, you start to wonder if ‘that status’ will forever remain in ‘Single’ mode, you know? It’s a lonely road to walk alone while watching others pass you with such contentment in love.

I don’t know. The boat may have sailed with this one. He hasn’t showed much interest after confessing which makes me have second thoughts. My way of dealing this sort of feeling from going all ballistic is by blogging and here I am, outpouring every bit of sentiment from my brain and heart onto a pixelated world wondering if someone out there is even reading this? Anybody?